Day 12 – Ordinary Beauty of Broken Plans

This year I had a plan. I settled on my #write31days topic early and made sure it was doable. More than doable, it would be easy. One that wouldn’t require too much thought. A topic where the words would pour onto the screen in such ways they would be near poetic, yet effortless.

“How’s that working for you?”,  you might ask.  Not so good.

It’s not about page views or engagement with readers. Yes, I look at those. Yes, they matter. But I’m learning more in these broken plans.

Let me back up.

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Last year I read about this writing, and posting, everyday in October challenge. I’d been blogging a few years but this was the first I’d seen of this challenge. I thought it would give my blog the reader boost it needed. Or I needed. (You know, the whole, “like me, please like me” thing.)  I wasn’t hooked up with any writing groups. I din’t know there were resources out there or how to access them. Never fear. I could do this.

My expectations were for the blog to take off. It didn’t.

I floundered in getting content written every day and I’m certain there were a few days I said, Not. Today.  My expectations were unrealistic and proved to me how little I knew about writing. Turns out it’s more than typing words on a screen.

This year I found the FB groups, the resources, the tips for planning ahead, making buttons and landing pages and I crammed as if it were finals week. I was going to nail it this year.

Back to the topic. You know, the easy one.

Easy is a copout. Easy isn’t always true.

A couple of months ago, I decided to be more intentional with writing. I was part of a book discussion at Kate Motaung’s site about the process of writing. I read with a more focused interest about the subject of writing and, through my limited experience, have learned writing is work. And good writing is seldom easy. There are days I look at the only words I could squeeze out and think, meh.

What I’ve learned, barely in the middle of this 31 days, is, my brilliant plan is broken.

It’s not that the topic was bad or the words are awful. It’s that my intention to give my best wasn’t there. Easy might work for a recipe for banana bread or a pattern for someone just learning to sew, but to think my readers deserve easy? At best, a selfish thought, at its worst, arrogant.

I’m not changing the topic, only altering my focus and readjusting my intentions to dig deeper. To sand off the veneer and polish the grain of the words to a warm patina.

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I have this tiny ceramic cow in a drawer. It’s no bigger than 2″ high. Its tail and two legs are broken. I’ve had this cow over 20 years. It holds no monetary value, yet I keep it because it’s precious to me. Our son gave it to me when he was a young teenager. He’d been on an out of town band weekend. In the gymnasium next to the church where they were performing, a women’s group was having a rummage sale and he bought this little cow for 50cents because he knew his mama liked cows.

We’ve had several moves since he gave me that shiny black and white cow, with many opportunities to toss it. But broken and all, it’s one of the more beautiful things I own. I’m hoping my broken plans, broken before God, will yield a similar beauty.

 

More about Debby Hudson

Where do you find grace? Inside the church walls? Around the dinner table with your family? For years, grace was not much more than the prayer we said before meals or a biblical concept. Then I met a group of men who had, as we say, reached bottom. They welcomed me to Graceland. They showing me grace can be found in the darkest of places. I'm still searching and learning. I hope you'll want to come along.

11 thoughts on “Day 12 – Ordinary Beauty of Broken Plans

  1. Gabriele

    I get it. It’s halfway through and I’m feeling the pressure, too. I picked a heavy topic which I am still rumbling with. I have revised and edited the plan but I am so glad to know you are hanging in there and encouraging me to do the same.

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    1. Debby Hudson

      I think you’re doing very well with your topic, Gabriele, but I can see how it would feel from your side. I’ve enjoyed following you. Thanks for hanging with me!

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  2. Larry Koontz

    And so they will. Your 31 days of writing have been my 31 days of busyness, and a crazy schedule that won’t quit. But I find myself tracking with you each day. Why? Because I can read one in a few seconds, get the point and go on with my day. The ultimate point? God is using what you are writing in my life–Thank you. I can’t wait to see what He plays out through you the rest of this month.

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    1. Debby Hudson

      Careful there, Larry. You’re going to make me tear up. I know it’s not that hard to do some days but coming from a good friend like you….I’m such a sap! Your words mean more than you know.

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  3. Annie Rim

    This post has stuck with me… Thanks for the honesty. I didn’t do 31 days because life is crazy right now. But, when is life not crazy? Was it an easy out? I’ve been so encouraged by this series and am glad you chose this topic. 🙂

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    1. Debby Hudson

      I hear what you’re saying, Annie, about when is life not crazy, but with two little ones….don’t be hard on yourself. I’m struggling to keep up reading others blogs in the midst of this but I could be using the wrong measuring stick some days 😉

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  4. iwillbloom

    Debby, a beautifully honest post. I simply couldn’t commit to 31 days, myself, because I knew my heart wouldn’t last it out (I’m working, like a little busy bee, on my book)….and if my heart’s not in it, it’s just not going to work (doesn’t sound authentic)…..I’m in awe of your ability to have continued on with renewed strength…each and every post beautifully written with so many thought-provoking ideas. Well done! As I said earlier, in another comment, I will be reading but most probably won’t have time to comment (if only my phone would play along; I simply can’t figure out what the problem is!)…..will be back next weekend to comment….have a great week! Helen xxx

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    1. Debby Hudson

      The end of this week I have felt like I hit the writing “wall”. I wrote a lot in advance, learning lessons from last year. But I have more to go and feeling depleted of words and ideas. I guess now is when we dig really deep 😉 No worries about commenting. It’s an honor to know you’re reading!

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      1. iwillbloom

        Debby: I love FMF because you only have 5 minutes to respond and it forces you to be as creative as possible with those five minutes. Why not try for a five-minute response time for the days you’re stuck: I’m sure it’d bring the fun back! Helen xx

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