‘Breathe In – Breath Out’ repeat

He’s up at 4:30 a.m. I cover my face with his pillow trying to hide my eyes from the edges of light around the door. I sculpt a small opening where I can breathe.

I’m given to overthinking, the kind that breeds anxiety. This gives way to hiding my feelings because what good Christian admits to worry? Doesn’t that mean we aren’t trusting God?

Yes, I’ve wrestled with that a bit until I can’t hide it so I confess it and that’s when I breathe. Sometimes it’s a one word text shared between my cousin and me: “breathe” we remind each other. And what we really mean is exhale. We suck in our breath, holding it as we hold the fears and worries, the pain and regrets but we have to let it out.

My friend and counselor says to slowly breathe in a 4-count, hold it 4 more and slowly let it out. Exhaling is like whispering release.

Another thought is that each breath is breathing the Hebrew name of God: Yah’-whey.  (YHWH) That it’s the first thing we say at birth when we take our first breath and the last thing we utter at death as we breath our last: Yahweh.

“‘As surely as I live,’ says the Lord,
‘every knee will bow before me;
every tongue will acknowledge God.’”[a] Romans 14:11 NIV

I want to believe that. I want to think we were created to say his name with each breath. But saying the name of God is different from calling on the name of God. It’s different from declaring God as our God.

My word this year is peace. It’s a word I’m trying to breathe, to weave it into my life so it will come with each breath. God’s peace to slow my thoughts, calm my fears, measure my breathing. To remember exhale is the important part. Let it out.

Breathe on me, Breath of God,
fill me with life anew,
that I may love what thou dost love,
and do what thou wouldst do.
(Edwin Hatch 1800’s hymn)

More about Debby Hudson

Where do you find grace? Inside the church walls? Around the dinner table with your family? For years, grace was not much more than the prayer we said before meals or a biblical concept. Then I met a group of men who had, as we say, reached bottom. They welcomed me to Graceland. They showing me grace can be found in the darkest of places. I'm still searching and learning. I hope you'll want to come along.

12 thoughts on “‘Breathe In – Breath Out’ repeat

  1. andrealanewrites

    Hey Debbie, thanks for your beautiful words this morning! I clicked over from FMF because your title resonated with my post, though you took it in a different direction, I love FMF just for that reason. It’s so awesome to see how the Lord stirs in each of us differently and then uses others to work on me.
    Have a blessed Friday!

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    1. Debby Hudson

      Thank you andrealane. Now I want to check out your take. It is good to see the different ways we process these prompts.

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  2. hopeful50

    I love this so much, Debby. Yah-weh………….

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    1. Debby Hudson

      We were on the same track today, weren’t we Susan? xx

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  3. Joanne Viola (@JViola79)

    Debby, I love this post. When I feel myself becoming overwhelmed with worry, I try to stop my thoughts, to pause and the most effective way is for me to “breathe”. I just quietly repeat “Jesus”, “Jesus”, “Jesus” … slowly and as often until His peace comes. It always does! Glad to be your neighbor this morning at FMF!

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    1. Debby Hudson

      Ah, yes, Joanne, I’ve said His name over and over too. Especially times when sleep isn’t coming. Whatever word/name to say? 🙂

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  4. Tara Ulrich

    Exhaling is like whispering release….I love that! Great post friend.

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    1. Debby Hudson

      Thanks Tara. I read a post Heather Caliri had about exhaling. It was so good. Helped complete the whole thought of breathe for me.

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  5. Lesley

    I’m with you on the overthinking and the worrying. It is so easy to hold on to our fears and worries but important to remember to exhale and let them out.

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    1. Debby Hudson

      Not surprised we are like minds here, Lesley 😉

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