Moving around as much as my family did wasn’t my choice. Kids are along for the ride as parents decide such things, at least in my time it was that way. It can take some time to figure out the benefits of packing up and leaving Florida to Utah, especially when it’s in the December. Six months later you move back to Florida but the right coast this time and then to Texas and so on throughout my growing-up years.
You learn the vernacular of Baltimore does not include y’all but leans more to ‘youse’ and in Utah they it’s not skipping class but sloughing.
Granny would sometimes use the word puny when she wasn’t feeling ‘up to snuff’ and sometimes, ‘out of sorts’ is the perfect description to feeling a bit ‘off’.
In Sarah Bessey’s latest book, Out of Sorts: Making Peace With an Evolving Faith, the title reveals her out of sort-ness isn’t a physical one but spiritual.
I’ve read Sarah’s blog for a few years, finding her writing style relatable even though she’s younger than my daughter and her life in Canada speaks of more differences in our lifestyle. Her words aren’t written for a select group but she opens her heart to write the words she has carefully considered and wrestled with in prayer and contemplation.
Sarah is a seeker. A believer. A self-described happy-clappy charismatic drawn to following Christ rather than a denomination. This book is about that journey.
She is brave recounting the time she pulled away from church at the same time her husband was the Youth Pastor. I smile thinking how that would play out in our denomination; a pastor who’s spouse wanted nothing to do with church.
“Whether it’s in our relationship with God or with our own families, at some point we find that it is time to sort. It’s time to figure out what we need to keep, what we need to toss,
and what we need to reclaim.”
Out of Sorts: Making Peace With an Evolving Faith.
Even in her time of being ‘out of sorts‘ with church, Sarah doesn’t bash the institution or its people. Rather, she searches deeper for where it is God calls her in the midst her uncertainty.
“I will always pray as if this one thing is true: God is for us. And it’s worthwhile to keep knocking. That’s all I know about faith for sure.”
For the sake of full disclosure, I received an advance copy of this book which releases Tuesday, November 3, as part of the launch team. I agreed to give only my honest opinion about the book.
As I read page after page, I found myself in her words, feeling that ‘not quite there’ feeling about some of the words we say or how we look at this or that. I’ve looked at the limitation rather than the freedom and through her story I see a bit of my reflection. I find myself saying, “me too” chapter after chapter.
Sarah put words to my feelings and assured me, it’s going to be okay. Nothing has been lost, only revealed, reclaimed, and found anew.