Transition ahead: Slow down!

She wanted to sleep in but sleeping in for me means 7, maybe 7:30, not 10.

I pulled out the art supplies, tried to entice her in learning to draw a butterfly with a few lines when she said, “Can I paint?” Yes! yes, you can paint.

This will be good. This is what I envisioned for the week she’d be with us during her spring break. We’d spend a couple of hours or three drawing, painting and making a mess. We’d have lunch at Chick-fil-A, evening walks to the lake…..but she’s 9. And had her own ideas.

Do you have those moments you look forward to but forget how draining good times can be?

Do you come through them filled with joy but needing to be refilled in other areas?

Maybe I don’t transition well. Okay. I’m positive I don’t transition well. Transitioning takes time and often includes slowing down which most of us aren’t good at. We can’t make these sharp turns going at the same speed. We can, but it often results in injury.

I took time away from some work responsibilities to focus on a relationship that’s being built moment by moment. There’s no time to ease back into the daily routines.

Work is the easier part. but the ideas for writing and photography and general creativity seem illusive. I need a refill.

So I start slow, scrolling through Instagram and letting creations of others provide beauty.

I’m rereading a few blogs I’d tagged. I’m slowly reading through Emily Freeman’s post called 8 Things Whole-Hearted Creative Women Do Differently.  (I’m hoping this will finally define me as a creative woman and then I quickly scold myself for the never ending self-doubts.)

I get to the part where Emily says “She no longer fears the silence”.

“She has made her peace with the silence she sometimes hears when she asks what is next. She trusts the inspiration will always circle back around again. She listens in the darkness and creates her way through it because sometimes that’s the only way out.”

It’s quieter with the granddaughter back in her house 5 hours away. There are no Disney movies playing at night or little girl squeals when her Papa plays with her.

I like the quiet. But yes, I think Emily has hit something here. This quiet can be mistaken for lack of inspiration, for purpose.

It’s just one small part of how this time in our life is holding a lot of transitions. And to make the turns I need to slow down. To listen in the darkness, trusting that inspiration will always circle back around again.

12 Comments

  1. Debby,
    I LOVE this adorable post about your granddaughter! She is so precious! But oh how I can relate with similar circumstances with my niece — the things we’ve planned aren’t always on their agendas, are they? I just love everything you did with your girl (thanks for sharing the lovely photos) and the words you write about transitioning and silence and purpose — spot on! xoxo

    March 29, 2017
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    • Debby Hudson said:

      We both wrote about journeys today, Valerie. So different but the same in many ways. Life is good. We are blessed and this little girl adds so much to that.

      March 29, 2017
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  2. sarahgirl3 said:

    Transitions are hard, and yes, I probably speed too much. Gotta get to the next thing!
    In this moment, I needed to remember to slow down.

    March 29, 2017
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    • Debby Hudson said:

      I hear you Sarah! The one thing I do seem slow at is learning to slow down 😉

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  3. Linda Stoll said:

    We’re with 4 VERY energetic grandchildren this week. You’re making me smile, friend …

    March 29, 2017
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    • Debby Hudson said:

      Oh my! I hope they’re at the age when they still nap, Linda. At least a couple of them.

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  4. hopeful50 said:

    I just knew you’d be a fun grandma – what is YOUR grandma name? Do tell. I confuse the silence/quiet with avoidance…of which I am the Queen of!

    March 29, 2017
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    • Debby Hudson said:

      Ah, important to notice that about silence Susan. That can be so true. Yes, we all have our own grandma names these days don’t we? Mine is MayMay. Just something she cooed to when I was going over a list of possibilities rocking her to sleep in the wee hours one night. Sounds kind of southern, don’t you think? 😉

      March 29, 2017
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  5. judikruis said:

    She is growing so quickly too. Wow! Silence and stillness can seem awkward but are so necessary even when we don’t understand. Bless you!!

    March 29, 2017
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    • Debby Hudson said:

      Isn’t she though? I’ve grown more comfortable with it, Judi and I’m so glad. Even when I don’t understand – definitely then!

      March 30, 2017
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  6. Annie Rim said:

    Yep, slowing down is hard work. But so, so worth it. Glad you had a sweet week with C!

    March 30, 2017
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